if finally feels like i've lost it all
seriously
it seems like i always gotta mess things up!
its prob my temper
i get set off easy and dont hesitate to flip
even at people i love
now because of that issue
i think the kid i really like, likes my bestfriend
it all started with a misunderstanding
me and the kid i liked
we had a weird relationship going on
we liked eachother as far as i know alot
but we wernt dating cuz we like never see eachother
so i go to his page
and hes in a relationship with some random ass chick
so i flipped
and went to my room all mad/sad
so my bestfriend calls
and shes all talking about her ex b/f problems
then after like 5 minutes she realizes im in no mood to talk
but i didnt tell her why
so we got off the phone
then she calls me back like 10 minutes later and is like
whos ....
w/e the name it said he was in a relationship with
and i was like
I DONT FUCKING KNOW
and hung up
then like 5 minutes again she calls
and i was like
i dont wanna talk to you right now!
then i get on the cpu
and i have a message from her and shes like
i know this might make you mad but i called him and he said he got hacked but thanks for bitching at me when i waned to help
i'll say the reason that makes me mad later
but she was all mad at me
and i was still pissed off
then they started talking on the phone
and they talked for atleast 45 minutes
and he told her all the shit i ever said about her
then after her bitching me out then saying sorry
i was talking to her
and he was all she would talk about!
and she knew i really liked him
so the next morning
this morning
i made my away message for him
heres what it said
since your impossable to get ahold of
[except for shelby she talked to you last night]
danny this is for you
FUCK YOU seriously im tired of you i dont talk to you like at all anymore and when i do its like the most boring thing fucking ever i have better convos with random people on myspace then you and i also i know you dont give a shit about anything that has to do with me or you would try harder so leave me alone and DONT talk to me because i was nothing to do with you plus i know it was you who told shelby what i said your the only person i ever said that shit too because i trusted you ha well fuck that & yea "im not like other guys" bull fucking shit your the same as all of them so dont even try to tell me that. go fuck one of those girls who wants you so bad or maybe go for shelby! i mean you do have a thing for going for bestfriends...
oh and while im here telling you shit
i think your mad ugly
so like i said get the fuck out of life
and all he pretty much told me was to chill
and i was being harsh
shit like that
nothing more then 4 words
then i told him to just go for my friend
and he never wrote back to that
then me and my friend got in this huge thing
we ended with her hanging up
then he calls me
and is just like
alright whats up with everything
so we talked and shit
then at the end
hes like well i'll ttyl
i as like alright bye
but i didnt feel like it fixed anything =/
then i was in alittle better mood
so i called my friend back
and it turns out she called him
and told him to call me and fix things
so that kinda hurt
but me and my friend made up and went to the mall
i feel like i ruined it for her though
cuz while we where there i was all =[ the whole time
i just kept thinking
he likes her i know it
then i got home and here i am
talking to this kid i met on facebook
and typing this
i really just want him back all to me
=[
ohh and the reason she said it would make me mad was
i told her and him not to talk
i know selfish
thats what everyone thinks
but thats not it!
the way i see it shes like me but better
and she always does this!
like i know someone then she does then they like her more
damn how i wish i was like her
life would be so much better for me
she doesnt even get how much i want to be her either
its not me being selfish though
its not wanting to loose people i love
but what i really need is some advice on what to about that whole thing
someone help ?????
